the whimsy
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We’ll hit South Broadway in a matter of minutes
And like a bad movie, I’ll drop a line
Fall in the grave I’ve been digging myself,
But there’s room for two
Six feet under the stars
my hand in yours,
differences are of no significance
with you by my side,it's fulfillment
nothing else i'd need,your love suffices
the me
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the reason the sun shines
he who walks so the earth can spin
counted to infinity, and square-rooted it
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
it's significant yet does not feel so.a few minutes ago,i just turned 24.the numbers are starting to look scary since i turned 21.i feel...old.but largely,i feel stressed and incredibly lonely.
it's hard trying to focus on schoolwork and not to get distracted.on the other hand,it's hard trying to feel happy and not to let the stress get to me.it's hard being lonely and not being able to find company.but it's worst missing someone.
ran into an old friend in school.could hardly recognise him since i have not met him since he underwent his late puberty.had quite a long chat.like me,he is not doing too good in school and scraping through extended semesters.apparently,he is having the similar bad varsity life experiences.it struck me how he changed from such a cherry character into someone so pessimistic and jaded.maybe i'm like that too.i just have not talked to myself for too long a while.
maybe it is about time.to talk to myself.to reflect.
on a sad note,i received news that a grandaunt had passed away at 5 in the evening earlier.this,after just having visited her in hospital before lunch with my parents.it was heartwrenching watching her bedridden in a coma-like state.yet it was heartwarming watching my granduncle praying hard and still caring for her lovingly by her side.she fell to cancer and the debilitating effects of the treatment involved.she fought the good fight for a good 5 long years i think.you will always be remembered Nyai Ju.
it's so hard missing someone yet i have to learn to better cope with these feelings.at times the tears just well up and i feel so miserable.i really wish she is here.
life is just not the same not having you around,dear.
