the whimsy
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We’ll hit South Broadway in a matter of minutes
And like a bad movie, I’ll drop a line
Fall in the grave I’ve been digging myself,
But there’s room for two
Six feet under the stars
my hand in yours,
differences are of no significance
with you by my side,it's fulfillment
nothing else i'd need,your love suffices
the me
level 25 noob
the reason the sun shines
he who walks so the earth can spin
counted to infinity, and square-rooted it
Monday, March 17, 2008
i cannot help laughing at myself.just got up and missed the morning lectures(again) and it looks like i will not be going for the lecture later seeing how lazy i am and have always been.i wonder when i will really pull up my socks despite all the mental debates,dialogues,reprimands i had with my helpless self.
life sucks when i start thinking about it,but if i don't i will just get sucked deeper into this abyss and seeing that i had,haha,it really looks like i will never get out of it.it's amazing how i have changed in a spate of a couple of years.Though the people around me will say i hardly did,i'd beg to differ because they don't know my true self.
i don't feel as motivated as i was in JC,i wonder why? the old FI will probably sneer at me seeing how he will turn out.his fire of academia will be extinguished by the incoming cold front bearing showers of hedonism.to my old-self: don't give in!
analyzing my current situation,i'd say the NS experience was the catalyst to this detriment though i enjoyed and learnt so much from it.then,not adapting and ultimately hating varsity life possibly compounded the problem.
however much i hate it though,this gauntlet i must overcome for the love,hopes and sacrifices of people who have in some way or another shepherded me to this path of perceived success.what i have is a much coveted place in society,they'd say,and i'd be wise not to squander it.i have deep faith i will not but the constant rigor is perpetually weighing me down and at times i feel i do not have the emotional strength and determination to see myself through.the only panacea i have is the fear of facing the disappointment of the people who have vested so much in me.
real men don't talk about problems,they solve them.
OK,GOING TO STUDY LO!
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